It felt cruel for me to want this man, THIS man, 16 years my junior and who I believed was sure to abandon and hurt me that it was possible. I really attempted to destroy my desire by gathering any flaw, mistake, and inconsistency I could find and hurling them at him one by one. The deeper we fell, the greater amount of fearful we became, therefore the more I seemed for flaws to indicate and criticize. We thought We might stop loving him if We noticed so how deeply flawed and immature he had been. Alternatively, I’d offered him reason that is good keep me personally, and I became more afraid than in the past which he would. (more…)
Continue Reading Realizing just how much i needed life with him terrified me personally.